I'm Tired

I'm tired.

I'm tired of people telling me what they think I want to hear but never actually meaning it.

I'm tired of people saying they'll do something but never actually doing it.

I'm tired of people saying they'll be there for me, just ask, but when I ask they always have some great reason why they can't.

I'm tired of always being there for people anytime, anywhere, anything, only to be let down by those same people.

I'm tired of being so overwhelmed I can't breathe, I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't even speak without bursting into tears.

I'm tired of being used and beaten and taken for granted.

I'm tired of finding out the people I believed and trusted and counted on the most are the first ones to leave me hanging the highest.

I'm tired of people giving me tons of advice, it's free and it's easy. They get upset if I don't take it, but if I do take it and things go bad, it's no consequence to them. And you should understand that they were just trying to help. Sorry it didn't work out for you, but it's no skin off their teeth, right?

I'm tired of hearing people say their sorry so I can counter with something to make them feel better.

Yes, I know, everybody is sorry. But how does that help me?

I'm just tired.