Barrier

Eleven months of quiet fire

Now the screen glows cold and blue…

We said “I love you” like breathing air

Lost ourselves in passion no one knew

You called me home in the midnight glare

Then told me freedom was calling you

So I buried the ache and played the friend

Held your pieces while mine fell apart

Gave you my light till there was nothing to lend

Loved you hardest with a breaking heart

Two months of “sorry” and “I’m so fucked up”

While my world went dark and my grades hit the floor

I stayed through the silence, I drank every cup

Still believed there was hope for us

Now your bio screams “Taken”

Cuddling him with hearts in your name

While I’m staring at red with fists clenched tight

No tears will fall, they forgot how to rain

There’s a deep subtle pain sitting under my skin

I can feel it breathing but it won’t break through

I’m stiff and exhausted, so goddamn tired within

Behind the barrier… what’s left of me and you?

Every “I apologize” tasted like rust

While you built something new on the side

Told me relationships weren’t what you want

But look at you glowing — you lied, you lied

I sacrificed pieces no one else saw

For a boy who was already walking away

Now the truth hits different than I ever thought

You were never lost — you just needed space… from me

I wanted to scream till the sky came apart

Wanted to burn every memory we made

But my body just froze and protected my heart

Turned the wildfire into quiet shade

No explosion came, no beautiful flood

Just this heavy stillness weighing on my chest

The rage is still here but it’s locked in my blood

The barrier saved me… now I’m the one who’s left

Your bio still screams “Taken”

Public love while I break here alone

I loved you so deep that it swallowed me whole

Now the feeling won’t surface, it’s turned into stone

This core ache is moving but it can’t get free

I’m numb in the middle of all this despair

I’m so fucking tired of not feeling me

Behind the barrier… I’m barely even there

No tears came tonight…

No tears came tonight…

Just nylon strings playing into the quiet

Behind the barrier…

I loved you… I loved you…