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I see the way you look at me

When I’m too weak to move, too tired to speak

And the silence fills the kitchen light

Like we’re both pretending this is fine

You didn’t sign up for this road

The pills, the pain, the quiet load

You hold the house while I hold on

I feel like everything I was… is gone

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And I hate that you suffer for the things I can't fix

That our babies see me when I’m like this

You deserve more than a shadow of me

But I’m doing all I can, even when you can't see

I may be broken, but I still love you right

Even when I can't stand, I still fight

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I hear them laugh, I hear them cry

Through the door I close to keep them dry

From the storms that live beneath my skin

From the guilt that grows when I give in

They ask if I'm okay again

I nod and smile, I play pretend

But when they sleep, I break in two

Wishing I could be more for you

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And I hate that you suffer for the things I can’t cure

That I’m here in body, but never secure

You carry the weight I never meant to share

But I see what you carry, and I know it’s not fair

I may be fragile, but I’m still holding tight

For the people I love — I still fight

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One day they’ll know the truth I hide

That loving them has kept me alive

And even when I can't be strong

You’re the reason I keep holding on

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I’m sorry you suffer for the parts of me lost

But I’ve paid and paid, and you’ve paid the cost

If love alone could heal me whole

You’d have already saved my soul

I may be hurting, but I still choose the light

Because for you… I will always fight

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I see what you carry

And I carry it too

Every breath, every tear —

I love you