Vivid dreams

vivid dreams
had some friends go and switch teams
gotta go and get to the money do it by any means
genetically I’m wealthy 
the money it’s coming from my genes 
blowing up like TNT
they watching me like DVD
I got drive DMV
 not the same no symmetry 
I’ve seeing this so differently
I’ll run this til infinity 
keeping the holy trinity 
inside of me alive 
fuck the industry 
no sympathy
had my dick down in the dirt 
but I kept my dignity 
so I raised up
now I’m fired up
you don’t have to say it 
I know these people are so sick of me
my demons are a detriment 
used em all to my element 
cause how you gonna say that your perfect 
without a testament 
we all got battles we fight inside it’s so evident
the trunk goin nuts straight swangin just like an elephant 
you don’t have to tell that I’m good because I’m excellent 
rap lyrics coursing through my veins 
yeah it’s prevalent
27 now and still working on my development 
I know I got flaws I know I could be a gentleman 
but really I’m melancholy lab created specimen 
I am not a Holly jolly carol singing 
kind of man
I could be more happy and festive 
if I would let it
take over all the memories of me being neglected 
but I guess it’s just the method 
of growth so I’m battle tested
thinking back at 18 when I almost got arrested 
doing sum shit now I’m wiser I got corrected
never had a single person 
show any direction 
had to kill the old me
and show em a resurrection 
perspective and reality 
really is all perception
not to mention 
thoughts of suicide that 
I would have like every night
gun pointed to my fuckin head 
see the afterlife 
only reason  I never did it cause 
I believe in Christ 
burned by many people
ironic it tuned my heart to ice
tryna climb the ladder 
in life is probably my biggest vice
next to pride 
only time I feel alive 
when I’m all alone at night 
thinking bout the wrongs and rights 
and dreaming of the shiny lights 
I don’t like  people knowing  how I feel that’s why I write 
I’m an open closed book it all depends on the reader 
if you ask who I am ima tell you a truth seeker
gotta go and find the meaning 
before I go and meet the reaper
ima real big dreamer
and leader but not a sleeper
ain’t afraid to get deeper
and I am my brothers keeper
when I get to speakin
they feel my words like a preacher
I’m a student of this life 
and the universe is my teacher 
they Stab me in my back 
like they Brutus 
And I am Caesar 
Im a peaceful loving reader 
but try me I keep the heater 
so play me and I’ll leave you lookin like Lincoln inside the theatre 
And I am not linkin
with none of these people either 
I’m a lone wolf 
lurking alligator kind of creature 
these bars got em shocked 
like they bout to have a seizure 
the flow is so dirty im taking em to the cleaners 
bout to fuck these bitches up
I ain’t talkin bout dog breeders
hard to give trust and my love cause they all cheaters
but still I follow Jesus 
I’m feeling like Saint Peter
and no I’m not perfect 
I accept my flaws
I know I will not live forever that’s my wake up
call
only so much time you have to go and fight for your cause 
will you leave it all inside 
or will you give them your all?
what’s the number for the afterlife
I needa make calls
will I be a king or peasant?
will I rise or ill fall?
cause the way I’m livin lately 
got my back to the wall
big or small
if I’m kicked down then fuck it I’ll crawl
cause our time is way to limited 
to sit there and stall
so I don’t care what you do
either way ima ball
they said we living in some strange times
Jesus comin back yea I heard it through the grapevine
ballin on em 
hit the corner 3 or the baseline
you know who I am
I’m a dawg I’m a canine
making songs at night 
and making money in the daytime
these bitches hella bad 
but they getting on my nerves
so my patience that I have with em 
similar to their waistlines 
yeah you had a chance and you blew it but I won’t waste mine
in the gym 
 in the booth 
I don’t like waste time
I don’t do interviews
I just do breakthroughs 
I don’t need new friends
bitch I’m with the same crew
and I outgrew 
all the shit that I been through 
I just wanna go home
but I don’t know where home is at 
I’m a lost soul 
I’m just tryna find my path 
and lately i feel like I’ve been stuck inside my past
maybe this the way it has 
to be
Im living too fast 
it’s a hundred on my dash
and now I hope  I don’t crash 
I’ve been holding onto hope 
but maybe it’s better inside the trash 
I know that I don’t mean that 
I just say it whenever I’m mad 
maybe I’m just home sick 
I know it makes no sense 
but theres a lot of things inside of my mind I try to cope with 
fighting temptations 
like every day 
go toe to toe with 
every single demon that I fed and let live 

Melodic, trap, heavy 808 bass