[Verse 1]
I count the chairs around the table
Pretend the numbers make me safe
Someone asks me how I’m doing
I pull a grin across my face
I keep my coat on in the kitchen
Though everybody’s staying late
I nod along to half a story
And watch my hands forget their shape
[Pre-Chorus]
I know the little lines by heart
The ones that make you turn away
[Chorus]
I’m empty in a crowded room
Smiling so nobody asks
I say I’m fine, I say it soon
Then disappear behind the glass
When did the color leave the day?
When did my pulse become a task?
I’m empty in a crowded room
Smiling so nobody asks
[Verse 2]
The bedroom clock keeps changing numbers
The ceiling takes another night
I list the people I’ve disappointed
Like receipts beneath a light
There’s a photograph beside the window
Me laughing with a crooked tooth
I hate the distance in that picture
I hate how much it looks like truth
[Pre-Chorus]
I used to reach for something real
Now I just reach to make it through
[Chorus]
I’m empty in a crowded room
Smiling so nobody asks
I say I’m fine, I say it soon
Then disappear behind the glass
When did the color leave the day?
When did my pulse become a task?
I’m empty in a crowded room
Smiling so nobody asks
[Bridge]
The train goes past at half past five
The windows carry other lives
I watch them vanish one by one
And wonder when I came undone
[Final Chorus]
I’m empty in a crowded room
No answer hiding in the noise
I wear the face they’re used to
And barely recognize my voice
If I stopped pretending for a day
Would anybody see the crack?
I’m empty in a crowded room
Smiling so nobody asks
[Outro]
The clock keeps changing numbers
I don’t
I don’t