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Afraid Not To

Afraid Not To

Itsjavilicious

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Lyrics

[Verse 1]

You leave your coffee by the window

Like you might come back for it

I fold the blanket at the footboard

And tell myself I’m fine with it

Your name is still inside my phone light

A little spark I never kill

I keep one hand upon the doorway

One hand reaching for you still

[Pre-Chorus]

I know the safest room is empty

I know the lock can hold

But every time I choose the quiet

My heart gets twice as loud

[Chorus]

I’m torn between the door and your arms

Between the warning and the want

I’m scared that love will leave me marked

But scared of what I’ll miss if I don’t start

Hold me close, then let me breathe

Tell me there’s no guarantee

I’m afraid, I’m alive, I’m falling apart

Still I want your hands around my heart

[Verse 2]

I learned to read the pause in voices

The careful space before goodbye

I call it wisdom, call it timing

Anything but asking why

You don’t arrive with perfect answers

You only bring your honest face

And somehow that is more frightening

Than every lonely night I’ve staged

[Pre-Chorus]

I know the safest room is empty

I know the lock can hold

But every time I choose the quiet

My heart gets twice as loud

[Chorus]

I’m torn between the door and your arms

Between the warning and the want

I’m scared that love will leave me marked

But scared of what I’ll miss if I don’t start

Hold me close, then let me breathe

Tell me there’s no guarantee

I’m afraid, I’m alive, I’m falling apart

Still I want your hands around my heart

[Bridge]

Drop me into silence

Let the whole room disappear

I can hear my pulse deciding

I can feel you standing near

I have worn my fear like armor

I have called it being smart

But the thing I keep protecting

Is the thing that wants a start

[Climax]

I’m torn, but I’m not broken!

I’m shaking, but I’m open!

If love is a risk, then let it leave a scar!

I won’t spend another year

Making a home out of my fear!

Come close, come close, come close to my heart!

[Final Chorus]

I’m torn between the door and your arms

Between the warning and the want

I’m scared that love will leave me marked

But scared of what I’ll miss if I don’t start

Hold me close, then let me breathe

Tell me there’s no guarantee

I’m afraid, I’m alive, I’m falling apart

Still I want your hands around my heart

[Outro]

If I tremble, I’ll stay standing

If I break, I’ll break toward you

I was afraid of wanting something

Now I’m afraid not to

[Instrumental Outro]

Details

GeneratedSep 12, 2026

Duration4:28

LanguageEnglish

Style

female emotional soft-pop vocal, intimate breathy verses, warm piano and airy pads over a gentle four-on-the-floor house groove, rounded sub bass, restrained claps, gradual lift into a big melodic chorus, tension-building final section with brighter electric guitars and live-feeling drums, beat drop before the climax, powerful sustained female belt and raw emotional yell, rock-pop outro with wide guitars, polished modern mix, vulnerable verses turning defiant and cathartic

Credits

Prompt by

Itsjavilicious

ModelAria v6

Prompt

Female emotional soft comfort music with house music beat climax outro build beat drop emotional yellin singin turning into a rock vibe singin about being torn about being afraid of love or wanting it

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