The hardest part of getting old,
Is dealing with regrets,
Accepting there's no going back.
One chance is all I get. Behind these hazel eyes my insecurities hide . behind this crooked smile thoughts run wild for miles. Behind this pale crooked smile ,and freckled face lies a past , I can't erase . Under this tattooed skin and colored hair is trauma that cant be repaired. Deep down in this heart are emotions my brain tares apart. Disappointment is something I'm used to ,Its what I always get. My anxiety is at a all time high. I hold back tears, I show no fear, to embarrassed to look in the mirror. Cause then I might see a waste of a person I've come to be. the realization of love and happiness just is not in the cards for me... On this broken back is baggage, I'm damaged goods. No one wants that shit ,hell who would. I'm always used for something to pass time. Until they figure out what to do. I have no destiny, no future to look forward to. No reason to set a goal that I know won't ever be reached. I was never given any advise to strive , no reason for drive in this life . I was doomed, the day I was born. I've made no foot print or special mark. just another lost cause in this pittyful world. Boooohooo oooh got nothing to lose . Everything I am is everything I'm not. everything you see is everything I got . Everything I got well that's not a whole lot. Up and down, side to side it's like I'm on a big roller coaster ride . In My world there no one who really cares. Life can suck it's not always fair. No one knows who is fake or real. Or if the pain you feel will ever heal. Choices you make become mistakes. And the world your living in comes crashing down around you like some fucking earthquake. Decision you make create the path you take. You live and learn crash and burn. Whether you have regret or not In the end we all have the same results buried or burned, can't wait for my turn. I'll never learn. life only comes around once and never again .so stay true to yourself. Don't The let others drag you down. , here I stand, unapologetically me,
With scars and stories, a testament in this hell.
I'll embrace my small traits from my crazy family's embrace,
And celebrate the beauty born from a chaotic space.
For Im painfuly flawed,
A masterpiece painted by my life's trials of things I've done wrong
I'll wear my scars proudly, for each one is a part of my strength to live life with all of my heart. So there I don't need your acceptance or approval not from anyone. just awalway beeee true to yourself yeah yeah ooooooolalala aahhhahhh you only get one chance to live make it worth all the time you give oooh yeah yeah yeahhh
