October hit like fireworks
Under stadium lights
Homecoming and marching band
Playing loud into the night
We stayed after everyone left
Laughing in the parking lot
You said nights like that felt perfect
Like the world could just stop
Three a.m. became a habit
Phones glowing in the dark
Falling asleep while we were talking
Just to wake and pick back up
You said you liked how I explained things
How I always had a plan
Like somehow I had the answers
Just by being who I am
You said you liked the way I helped you
See things clearer in your mind
I didn’t know the way I said it
Would feel different later in time
But somewhere in those midnight calls
Something slowly changed
Now the silence in my bedroom
Feels louder than your voice
Like the night you said you loved me
Was the night you lost the choice
You said I sounded patronizing
Like I always had to lead
I thought I was just helping
But you heard something else in me
Now my phone lights up at midnight
And my heart still thinks it's you
But the last call that we ever had
Was the one that broke us through
Roller skating under neon
You were gliding like the floor
Knew your balance like you’d done it
A thousand times before
I was grabbing at the railings
Nearly falling every turn
But you laughed and said “you’re getting it”
Watching slowly as I learned
You said you liked how I kept talking
When the world felt hard to read
I didn’t hear the quiet warning
Hidden somewhere in that need
But December came in colder
And your voice began to fade
Longer pauses in our talking
Like the words were hard to say
You said it feels like you're explaining me
Like I'm something to repair
I tried to say I never meant that
But the words just hung in air
Then you said something softly
That I'll never unhear
“You never talked down to me
Until the moment I needed you to listen.”
Standing there in silence
With nothing left to fight
I finally understood it
The hardest part of losing you
Is knowing you were right
Now the silence in my bedroom
Feels heavier each night
Like the world we built together
Just disappeared from sight
Maybe I was trying too hard
To be someone strong and wise
And somewhere in that effort
I stopped hearing your side
But the last call that we ever had
Still echoes in my mind
And the moment that you hung up
Was the moment I learned why