Falling Again

(Verse 1)
Packed the bags, told myself it’s the last time
Threw the pills down the sink, drew a hard line
Three days clean, I can feel my heart beat
Looking in the mirror, standing on my own feet
But the air feels thin and the walls are closing in
And that familiar whisper says "where have you been?"
It’s a roadblock, a detour, a sudden U-turn
Just a little taste, I thought I could learn...
To stop.
(Chorus)
And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs
Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs
It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream
Trying to swim upstream in a freezing stream
Round and round, the cycle brings me low
Trying to let go, but I don't know how to let go.
(Verse 2)
Woke up on the floor, phone buzzing in my hand
Texts from my mother that I don’t understand
Said I’d be at dinner, said I’d be okay
Another Sunday wasted, another year thrown away
I’m fighting the shadow, but the shadow is me
And the key to the cage is the key I can’t see
I hit the wall, it’s a barricade of shame
And I’m the only one left to take the blame.

(Chorus)
And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs
Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs
It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream
Trying to swim upstream in a freezing stream
Round and round, the cycle brings me low
Trying to let go, but I don't know how to let go.

(Bridge)
They say "one day at a time," I’m taking one hour
But the urge is a titan, and I have no power
I close my eyes, and I’m back at the start
Just a hollow chest with a broken heart
I want to breathe, I want to see the light
But I’m drowning every fucking night.
(Guitar Solo - Distorted and frantic, then fading to silence)
(Chorus - Softly, acoustic)
And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs
Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs
It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream
Trying to swim upstream in a freezing stream
Round and round, the cycle brings me low
Trying to let go, but I don't know how to let go.

(Outro)
But I don't know how to let go.
(Just one more time...)

One more time...
I'll try again tomorrow.

Metalcore, male