Once upon a time, I had everything a man could want. I had the most beautiful wife, I loved, trusted,never doubted. I had the time of my life. After 30 years of marriage. I lost her I looked everywhere, I tried harder and harder each day , I never gave up as much as it hurt. I cound not not find her. I thought I we could wake up from this nightmare and she she would be there. I sure was lost , and missed her more and more. The pain and heart ache made me angry ,confused, and broken. And started hearing voices in my head screaming and shouting the most awful things in the world, trying to convince me that the pain I was expecting would go away if I would do as they say. I fought them every minute of the day. I was not gonna ever gonna listen or do the awful things they wanted me to do. It drove me crazy it was a constant battle, the pain was more than any man could endure. I'm still here , never giving up I will find her, never giving up searching , I will walk thru the debths of hell , I will walk the darkest roads , the freezing, cold, sleet , rain nor snow can keep me from searching and finding you. I promise that I will rid the world of that demonic being, that took you away. I will find you and have you and have you in my arms soon. And go back to the life we used to have. The voices and the pain it hurts can more than I can take. This nightmare I can nevee get away and find you there. Looking and searching never giving up my eyes are tired and heavy. I can't hardly see or keep them open anymore. I will walk in the complete dark just like the blind if that's what it takes to find the love of my life I will mess up the weather nor the evil of hell I will never give up our own never give up I will find the love of my life and we will be happy again. if it was,not for the memories, I would have gave up the pain is much. I will fight the hurt until the day they bury me in the dirt .