What did I do this time?

Sorry that I couldn’t do it

Sorry that I don’t feel worth it

Am I even enough for you to see me?

Or am I just somebody you don’t need?

Why am I even trying

When everything keeps falling down?

I’m screaming without making a sound

But nobody seems to hear me now

I keep asking all these questions

That I’m too afraid to say

If I disappeared tomorrow

Would anybody notice anyway?

I’m silently breaking inside

And no one sees, no one knows why

I’m falling apart behind these eyes

While I keep telling everyone I’m fine

I’m sad, I’m lost, I’m all alone

With no one that I can call my own

Do I even have a future

Outside of this family I’ve known?

I’m questioning everything right now

And I don’t know how to get back out

I can see you’re more of a friend right now

At least that’s how it feels somehow

I’m standing right beside you

But I don’t feel like you see me too

I feel like I’m just a friend

Someone you could lose and not regret

And maybe that’s what hurts the most

Feeling unwanted when I need you close

I’m trying not to cry

I’m trying not to fall

But I’ve been carrying this weight

And I can’t carry it all

I’m silently breaking inside

And no one sees, no one knows why

I’m falling apart behind these eyes

While I keep telling everyone I’m fine

I’m sad, I’m lost, I’m all alone

With no one that I can call my own

Do I even have a future

Outside of this family I’ve known?

I’m questioning everything right now

And I don’t know how to get back out

Maybe someday I’ll understand

Why I had to feel this way

Maybe someday I’ll look back

And know I made it through today

I’m more than what I couldn’t do

More than what they say I am

Even if I don’t believe it yet

Maybe I’ll learn to understand

I’m silently breaking inside

But maybe someone will see me this time

Maybe I don’t have to hide

Every tear I’ve been holding inside

I’m still here, I’m still trying

Even when I feel like giving up trying

Maybe there’s a future waiting

Somewhere outside the life I’m facing

Sorry that I couldn’t do it…

Sorry that I don’t feel worth it…

But maybe I’m not worthless.

Maybe I’m just hurting.

And maybe…

I’m still worth seeing.