Addictions

Backslides in the mirror, pupils like sinkholes

Promise to God then I lie through my skin pores

Bag in my pocket like it’s holy scripture

Swore I was done but the devil’s persistent

Cold nights, hot head, heartbeat stutter

Mama thinks I’m clean, I don’t correct her

Friends turn ghosts when the money get thinner

I don’t chase highs, I just run from the winter

Pre-Chorus

Every relapse feel familiar

Same song, new day, same sinner

Tryna kill pain, pain get bigger

I don’t want the crown if it’s built from triggers

Chorus

I was dead on my feet, now I walk through fire

Still smell like smoke but I’m breathing higher

Told myself quit, then I broke that vow

But I broke the cycle, I’m sober right now

Graveyard thoughts but I’m not laid down

I been lost, still found my way out

Drugs had me chained, I snapped that wire

I survived myself, that’s the trial

Verse 2

Sweat-soaked sheets, shaking at sunrise

Mind screaming lies with a preacher’s tongue

Every hit said “this the last time”

Last times stack like unpaid fines

I seen angels leave through the back door

Seen demons begging me for more

Hit rock bottom, started digging

Then I realized I was still living

Pre-Chorus

Every scar got a timestamp

Every relapse left a thumbprint

I don’t flex pain, I survived it

That’s a flex you can’t counterfeit

Chorus

I was dead on my feet, now I walk through fire

Still smell like smoke but I’m breathing higher

Told myself quit, then I broke that vow

But I broke the cycle, I’m sober right now

Graveyard thoughts but I’m not laid down

I been lost, still found my way out

Drugs had me chained, I snapped that wire

I survived myself, that’s the trial

Bridge

I ain’t proud of the nights I vanished

But I’m proud I ain’t let it finish

Still hear cravings knock like static

I don’t answer, I break the habit

Outro

If I fall again, I’ll stand again

I ain’t healed, just battling

No crown, no throne, no savior sound

Just a man still here, not underground