Action and Reaction

You are the thing,
that is so wrong with me.
Is not like always said,
Implying I got no friends.
Trying so hard to isolate me.
For me to believe that,
You are the one…
The only one who can…
Bring some kind of peace.
Gas lighting me,
Into think that you done
Thinking I’m am wrong 
Somehow along the way
A Im thinking you are right…

Step one: you come, you praise.
Telling me that I am great.
You whisper to my  ear,
nice things I want to hear. 
How everything is great 
All the plans that we should make.
Even though I should know 
In what you saying not to trust.
For your acting I don’t fall.
The only thing I  hope…
Somehow it will be different.
Once you are in…
(Yeah… Once you are in.)

Step 2: Control, manipulation.
Abuse and denigration.
You do things that will lead.
Some type of way I’m going feel.
God forbid if I speak. 
Express my self agains the deed.
Of your manipulative tactics.
You offend. You insult me.
You lie and lie also deny
You push and you push.
Making me question my own truth
You keep cutting me.
Never considering how deep.
I know in my core, 
I know in my soul
What I’ve done and nothing wrong .
But  I don’t know which way to act
Because I’m the first one to react.
Now you got you excuse!
You say to me: (it always you)
It’s always you!

I don’t accept that statement!
But I gave you what you wanted.
What was that!  You blame me?
What was that??? I want to scream.
But to late I see my actions 
You provoking my reaction.
(my reaction)

Step 3… You go quiet. You grow cold.
Not responding to the calls.
And you know what that does…
Traps you badly in a fog.
You know by keeping distance 
You are creating the resistance,
For me to let go.
And forever say good bye!
You created the attachment the first time
You did this flawless.
For some reason it is true.
All my thoughts are about you.
I don’t hate you and I hate you.
But finally come to peace.
That you are gone now I can grieve.
But suddenly I get a text
Oh you saying “hello babe”

I’m surprise when I think may be this time….
(It will be different.)

Atmospheric Soundtrack with Epic Percussion and Tension-Building Strings