Not Me

You show up like nothing ever happened

Like I didn’t cry the night before

Say my name like it still means something

But I’m not what you’re reaching for

Every promise got a “maybe later”

Every plan just disappears

I’m sitting here with all this love

And you’re just passing through my years

I keep waiting for my turn

But it never comes around

I’m always second guessing

While you’re never holding me down

You’re always breaking my heart

Over and over again

I’m never first in your world

I’m just a place you visit when

You’re lonely, you need me, you call me up late

But I’m never the one that you choose in the day

You’re always breaking my heart

Yeah, you tear me apart again

You put everybody else before me

Like I don’t even exist

I’m the secret in your shadows

Not the love you ever pick

All you want is just my body

Never care about my soul

You don’t see me, you don’t know me

You just take and then you go

And I hate that I still stay

Even knowing what you do

I’m just hoping one day maybe

You’ll finally choose me too

But you’re always breaking my heart

Over and over again

I’m never first in your world

I’m just a place you visit when

You’re lonely, you need me, you call me up late

But I’m never the one that you choose in the day

You’re always breaking my heart

Yeah, you tear me apart again

And I wish you never hid the truth

Wish I knew what you were doing

While I was loving you

You proposed to her

Built a life I never knew

While I was waiting on you

You married her in silence

Left me standing in the dark

Now I’m the one still bleeding

From a love you tore apart

I was never yours

I was never enough

Just a moment, just a touch

Not the kind of love I thought it was

You’re always breaking my heart

Over and over again

I’m never first in your world

I’m just a place you visit when

You’re lonely, you need me, you call me up late

But I’m never the one that you choose in the day

You’re always breaking my heart

And I’m done letting you start again

No more waiting in the dark

No more loving you in pieces

You kept breaking my heart

Now I’m finally gonna leave it