Not Me

You show up like nothing ever happened  
Like I didn’t cry the night before  
Say my name like it still means something  
But I’m not what you’re reaching for  

Every promise got a “maybe later”  
Every plan just disappears  
I’m sitting here with all this love  
And you’re just passing through my years  

I keep waiting for my turn  
But it never comes around  
I’m always second guessing  
While you’re never holding me down  

You’re always breaking my heart  
Over and over again  
I’m never first in your world  
I’m just a place you visit when  
You’re lonely, you need me, you call me up late  
But I’m never the one that you choose in the day  
You’re always breaking my heart  
Yeah, you tear me apart again  

You put everybody else before me  
Like I don’t even exist  
I’m the secret in your shadows  
Not the love you ever pick  

All you want is just my body  
Never care about my soul  
You don’t see me, you don’t know me  
You just take and then you go  

And I hate that I still stay  
Even knowing what you do  
I’m just hoping one day maybe  
You’ll finally choose me too  

But you’re always breaking my heart  
Over and over again  
I’m never first in your world  
I’m just a place you visit when  
You’re lonely, you need me, you call me up late  
But I’m never the one that you choose in the day  
You’re always breaking my heart  
Yeah, you tear me apart again  
And I wish you never hid the truth  
Wish I knew what you were doing  
While I was loving you  
You proposed to her  
Built a life I never knew  
While I was waiting on you  
You married her in silence  
Left me standing in the dark  
Now I’m the one still bleeding  
From a love you tore apart  
I was never yours  
I was never enough  
Just a moment, just a touch  
Not the kind of love I thought it was  
You’re always breaking my heart  
Over and over again  
I’m never first in your world  
I’m just a place you visit when  
You’re lonely, you need me, you call me up late  
But I’m never the one that you choose in the day  
You’re always breaking my heart  
And I’m done letting you start again  
No more waiting in the dark  
No more loving you in pieces  
You kept breaking my heart  
Now I’m finally gonna leave it
[Female Vocal]

R&B