I'm rollin' down highway 35, Trying to bottle this pain inside. Oh oh, I'm a little unsteady, I'm a little lost inside, And my heart stays heavy. I never say what's on my mind. And I think it's starting to show. My calloused hands grip the wheel, another long day, Wishing I could show my kids another way. What's going through my head, is a battlefield of silence and dread. I wish I didn't have to wish anymore, Prayin' for something just beyond that closing door. Tryin' to be the daddy, they can be proud to know, Wishin' on shooting stars that never seem to show. I just want to be the father that my babies can admire, The husband that my wife sets her whole heart on fire. Oh, God help me, 'cause I've tried every way, Smoking and drinking, just to keep pain away. Running and hiding, but my heart's still torn, Trying to find myself, feeling so worn. I use to think anger was all I possessed, A storm inside, a never-ending fight, But I was so wrong, living in the dimmest light, Hiding who I was put me to the test. I never knew depression had a hold on me, Thought I could bottle it up, strong and tall. But behind the anger, I was about to fall, Now I know, it was depression that I couldn't see. Oh, God help me, 'cause I've tried every way, Smoking and drinking, just to keep pain away. Running and hiding, but my heart's still torn, Trying to find myself, feeling so worn. Mom, We're happy you got to go live your life outside of the town you felt trapped in, But the bond we shared is fading, and my heart is slowly breakin. Always had imagined my kids growing up with you right there by their side! Now these precious moments are slipping away, like summer's fading light. What's going through my head, is a battlefield of silence and dread. Trying to be strong, but I'm breaking instead, Can anybody hear the words left unsaid? And Dad. I used to think it was our fault somehow, Wondering what made you run away, Watching kids with their dads play, It made me sad, wishing you would just of stayed. So, Guess I should just say thank you, For the lessons learned in pain, Growing up without you around, Took a toll I can't explain. A boy shouldn't grow up all alone, But I found my way, I found my ground, You left two boys and a heartbroken home, While our mom fought hard, she never backed down. Oh, God help me, 'cause I've tried every way, Smoking and drinking, just to keep pain away. Running and hiding, but my heart's still torn, Trying to find myself, feeling so worn. Hmmm, If I could find that magic genie's bottle, To wish away all our struggle. Give my wife a break from working at full throttle with her smile wearin' thin, I want more than these deliveries I'm livin' in. I've tried all the smoking, all the drinking away, Tried running and hiding from pain day by day. A broken heart is all that remains, But I'm fighting to break these invisible chains!

What’s Going Thru My Head