Oh where did she go

Still feel the same, but let me clear my head.

My melly, I remember her now.

I pushed her away,

Ignored her, hid her deep inside.

I know, I should've protected her.

Trying to be strong and mature.

That's when I broke. Lonely in a city i dont know anybody, yet they still hurt me

"What the fuck are you doing?"

"Get up! you gotta get up

my soul hurted then father sent me a angel

Gigi, for showing me the way,you have me forever you was only one stood by my side

sudden i felt strength to love me , i look in my eyes

"Guess who? It's me, your inner child."

" you forgot me,im sorry i want that bond again."

"I'm tired of seeking it in others, trying to replace what we had.

you never left my side.

Wipe those tears, look at yourself.

You stopped caring, your face shows it,

And it's ok, all you've been through.

You have your home now, only God made that possible.

"I'm sorry, Melly. Everyone says they miss you,

And honestly, I miss you too.

Fuck, look at what you've done now.

All this confusion, pain, wasted time,

They're nowhere around. I'm still here, Mel."

Time slips away as I stare at this canvas,

A five-foot tiger, so real it stuns me.how realistic it looked and how proud I am for once I wasn't overthinking honestly I kept thinking about somebody special until this day I still feel the same but let me get out my feelings

you have your home now that was only God but you're sitting here in this couch stuck in your mind I'm sorry Melly, everyone says they miss you and honest truth I miss you too fuck look at what you did now fuck look at the confusion the pain. I remember when I was very happy God nobody could tell me what depressed and what it meant I was so fucking innocent I didn't know nothing but happiness but God I went through this I know because I couldn't be that vulnerable in such a cruel world I had to find that fortress so I can do what I'm supposed to do why don't you hear me I'm breaking because I know I'm very close to what I need to know I find my strength I learned too. I never thought I'd be this a woman where if I was to look back as a child and looked up to me I probably say damn I wish I would be just like her but that inner child didn't know all the pain that came with it you don't have to know because I'm still going to hold your hands and we're going to continue to grow I love everybody my loved ones and even though trauma turned into agoraphobia. But now I see that it was for me to feel my hurt so I can connect with My soul it's like telling someone else to look outside to the moon so you could both connect just like me and my inner child that's how we connected again I promise from here on I won't hide you again let me look stupid I don't give a damn but you and I going to ride this to the end. I love my pulga my mama my brothers ,mean the world to me, my Gigi and my divine. Oooo. Where did Melissa go? I need to tell her something she needs to know. I know the world is scary when you're on your own. Tell me where did she go