Almost Us

Every time I pack a bag, you ask me where I’m goin’

I say I need some air, you say I’m already gone

We love like it’s forever, fight like it’s the end

Swear we’re done by midnight, wake up missin’ each other again

You say, “Don’t leave me,”

I say, “I’m just tryna breathe”

Somewhere in between love and survival

We keep breakin’ our own peace

You say believe in us

I say I’m tryin’ to

But belief ain’t enough

When fear’s in the room

Are we just almost us?

Almost right, almost wrong

Almost holdin’ on

Almost lettin’ go

Every time we get close

We pull back again

Say we’re done, then we kiss

Like it’s never the end

Girl, I love you, but love shouldn’t hurt like this

Are we more than a moment

Or just almost us?

You see doubt where I swear there was truth

I see love but I’m tired of proof

You say, “Fight for me,”

I say, “I already did”

But fightin’ every day ain’t how you build a life to live

You say, “I can’t lose you”

I say, “I’m losin’ me”

We keep callin’ it destiny

But destiny shouldn’t feel like guilt and grief

You hold me like I’m home

Then push me out the door

I don’t wanna leave again

But I can’t promise nevermore

Are we just almost us?

Almost safe, almost sure

Almost breakin’ down

Almost beggin’ for more

Every time we swear

“This is the last goodbye”

We make love with our words

Then bleed between the lines

Girl, I love you, but love shouldn’t hurt like this

Are we more than a memory

Or just almost us?

If love means stayin’

Why does it feel like runnin’?

If love means trust

Why we always testin’ somethin’?

I don’t wanna be your fear

I don’t wanna be your pain

I just don’t wanna leave again

And leave us both the same

Maybe love ain’t enough

If peace ain’t here

Maybe lettin’ go

Is the bravest kind of care

Are we just almost us?

Almost healed, almost whole

Almost found the truth

Almost lost control

If I stay, will we grow?

If I leave, will we break?

Is this love or addiction

We keep tryin’ to save?

Girl, I love you… yeah, that part is true

I just don’t know

If almost us

Can ever be full you

We’re not strangers

But we’re not free

Just two hearts

Tryin’ to love

Without losin’ me…