[Verse 1]
To whoever finds this—don’t cry, just read
I ain’t lookin’ for pity, just tryna be freed
I tried to hold on, I swear that I did
But the voices got loud and the light always hid
Tired of masks and fake “I’m fine”
Tired of sleep where I still rewind
Tired of waking up just to fall
Tired of pretending I feel at all
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[Pre-Chorus]
My ribs been cages, my smile’s a lie
I count my breaths and still ask why
You say I matter—then walk past
I scream in silence, but it don’t last
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[Chorus]
This is my $uicide letter
Ink like tears on torn-out skin
If I vanish, will they remember
The boy who broke but held it in?
This world chews soft hearts to bone
And leaves the dying all alone
So if you find this—know I tried
But I got tired of being alive
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[Verse 2]
Mom, I’m sorry—I wanted to stay
But pain don’t care how much you pray
I wrote this with hands that shook like leaves
Hope you find peace when I finally leave
To the friends that drifted, I get it, it’s fine
No one likes ghosts that cry all the time
To the mirror—I hated you most
You showed me someone already a ghost
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[Pre-Chorus]
I wore my pain like quiet clothes
Smiled in rooms that never froze
But inside, I drowned each day
A scream that never found a way
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[Chorus]
This is my $uicide letter
Ink like tears on torn-out skin
If I vanish, will they remember
The boy who broke but held it in?
This world chews soft hearts to bone
And leaves the dying all alone
So if you find this—know I tried
But I got tired of being alive
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[Bridge]
If there’s a God, tell him I knocked
But the door stayed shut, and the clocks all stopped
If love exists, I must’ve missed
That chapter in the script I kissed
Tell the stars I wished on them
Tell the sky I dreamt again
Tell my shadow thanks for staying
Even when I wasn’t praying
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[Outro]
So here it is—my last goodbye
Not for drama, not for pride
Just a letter soaked in ache
From a soul that couldn’t fake
I hope someone reads and sees
They ain’t alone in tragedies
But as for me, this is my song
I’m sorry it had to take this long
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