Can’t Quit // Can’t Cope

I can’t take another lonely night

This insomnia, it cuts like knives

Feelin’ fever rise under my skin

You’re the poison that I’m drowning in

Down on my knees, yeah, I’m in your grip

And you might be the death of me—still, I can’t quit

You’re the air I breathe, you’re the drug I chase

Even next to you, it’s not enough space

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I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself

It’s all I hear right now, I can’t escape this hell

I wanna scream and shout, but the words won’t come

Why can’t I feel myself? Why can’t I feel someone?

Give me your love ‘til it’s breakin’ my bones

I need you more than you’ll ever know

You’re in my blood, now I can’t come clean

I’m suffocatin’ just to feel something

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I’ve been tryin’, tryin’ to fight it

Thoughts in my head so loud, they’re violent

I always make the same mistakes

Now I’m dragging ‘round a soul I fake

Wanna break my vows, wanna kill this hope

How can I trust you when I’m barely afloat?

I need your touch like I need a fix

Even if it ends like this

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So I’ll go fuck myself ‘til I’m numb and gone

Dance for the void like the show must go on

Lose my friends when I lose my appeal

And come home to a plate that’s never filled

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I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself

It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I’ve felt

Give me your love ’til I disappear

Even if it’s pain, at least it’s clear

You’re my heaven, you’re my hell

My remedy, my prison cell

And if this ends with broken breath—

At least I felt before I met death

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Even when you’re next to me…

It’s still not close enough…

I can’t make myself…

Why can’t I make myself?