[Verse 1]
I can’t take another lonely night
This insomnia, it cuts like knives
Feelin’ fever rise under my skin
You’re the poison that I’m drowning in
Down on my knees, yeah, I’m in your grip
And you might be the death of me—still, I can’t quit
You’re the air I breathe, you’re the drug I chase
Even next to you, it’s not enough space
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[Chorus]
I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself
It’s all I hear right now, I can’t escape this hell
I wanna scream and shout, but the words won’t come
Why can’t I feel myself? Why can’t I feel someone?
Give me your love ‘til it’s breakin’ my bones
I need you more than you’ll ever know
You’re in my blood, now I can’t come clean
I’m suffocatin’ just to feel something
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[Verse 2]
I’ve been tryin’, tryin’ to fight it
Thoughts in my head so loud, they’re violent
I always make the same mistakes
Now I’m dragging ‘round a soul I fake
Wanna break my vows, wanna kill this hope
How can I trust you when I’m barely afloat?
I need your touch like I need a fix
Even if it ends like this
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[Bridge – Whispered, Distorted FX]
So I’ll go fuck myself ‘til I’m numb and gone
Dance for the void like the show must go on
Lose my friends when I lose my appeal
And come home to a plate that’s never filled
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[Final Chorus]
I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself
It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I’ve felt
Give me your love ’til I disappear
Even if it’s pain, at least it’s clear
You’re my heaven, you’re my hell
My remedy, my prison cell
And if this ends with broken breath—
At least I felt before I met death
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[Outro – Echoed Vocals, Fading Beat]
Even when you’re next to me…
It’s still not close enough…
I can’t make myself…
Why can’t I make myself?