[Verse 1]
I still see that April morning
Coffee gone cold in my hand
Phone lit up your brother’s number
Whole world shrank to a grain of sand
Drove out past the rusted fences
Gravel spitting under tired wheels
Every mile your name got louder
Every line between then and now peeled
[Chorus]
Heartsore for Ruan, every breath, every mile
Talking to your headstone like you’re just quiet for a while
I replay that sunrise, sky all bruised and wide
Trying to remember the day you died
So I can learn to carry you
Not just hide
[Verse 2]
Your boots still lean by the doorway
Cap still hooked on that same old nail
Truck key hangs on the pegboard waiting
Like we’re heading down the fence line trail
Mama sets a second place still
Says it helps her bless the food
We laugh at all your stubborn stories
Cry when the table falls back to two
[Chorus]
Heartsore for Ruan, every breath, every mile
Talking to your headstone like you’re just quiet for a while
I replay that sunrise, sky all bruised and wide
Trying to remember the day you died
So I can learn to carry you
Not just hide
[Bridge]
I don’t want the edges fading
I don’t want your voice to blur
So I trace that day like scripture
Every word, every ache, every slur
If missing you can make me kinder
If heartbreak can turn me wise
I’ll sit right here in the open
Let the hurt sharpen my eyes (yeah)
[Chorus]
Heartsore for Ruan, every breath, every mile
Talking to your headstone like you’re just quiet for a while
I replay that sunrise, sky all bruised and wide
Trying to remember the day you died
So I can learn to carry you
Right here on the seat beside
Heartsore for Ruan
For the rest of my ride