Heaven Doesn’t Even Want Me by JonnyOnit - Zona

Heaven Doesn’t Even Want Me by JonnyOnit - Zona

Lyrics

[Verse 1]

I bled in silence, stars above me

Felt the cold hands of the night

The world grew dim, my soul was rising

Floating past the city lights

My heart stopped screaming, just stillness calling

No more pain, no more fight

But just before I reached the silence

I heard a voice cut through the sky

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[Pre-Chorus]

"You don’t belong here, not just yet

The story’s not done, the sun hasn’t set"

Then I was falling through the clouds

Back to the scars, back to the sounds

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[Chorus]

Heaven doesn’t even want me

I’m still alive

Thrown back in the fire

With a reason to survive

Torn and reborn, I’m crawling through the storm

If I’m meant for more, I’ll become the war

Heaven doesn’t even want me

So I’ll make hell terrified

[Drop – monstrous, stomping, distorted melody]

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[Verse 2]

I woke to sirens, blood on my pillow

But something lit behind my eyes

A burning question, a second echo

Why did I survive this time?

The mirror’s shattered, but I see clearer

A girl who lived despite the lie

If I was spared, then I will matter

I’ll be the fire they can’t deny

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[Pre-Chorus]

"You don’t belong here, not just yet

Your greatest days you haven’t met"

I stitched the pain into my skin

Turned every loss into a hymn

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[Chorus]

Heaven doesn’t even want me

But I’m not afraid

I was made to break

Then rise another way

Torn and reborn, I’m stronger in the storm

If I’m still alive, there must be more

Heaven doesn’t even want me

So I’ll make earth shake

[Drop – glitchy, heavy, soul-tearing drop]

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[Bridge – soft, whispered vocals building into fury]

They told me I was nothing

Now I’m thunder in the rain

I wear my scars like warnings

For every ghost I’ve slain

The light refused to take me

But the dark became my crown

You don’t get to end me

I’m just getting started now

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[Final Chorus]

Heaven doesn’t even want me

But I own this breath

Dancing with death

On the edge of regret

Torn and reborn, I’m rising in the storm

If I’m here again, I’ll rewrite the end

Heaven doesn’t even want me

So I’ll live like a god instead

[Final drop – epic, cinematic, strings and choir over massive beat]

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[Outro – fading voice, almost ghostlike]

Still here… still breathing…

You didn’t break me…

I’m not leaving…