Borrowed Light

I wake up tired of pretending

This glow is something I own

Every shine I’ve been wearing

Belongs to someone else’s home

I’ve been standing in reflections

Calling them my name

Trying to feel warmer

In somebody else’s flame

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I smile just enough to pass

But it don’t reach the bones

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I’m living on borrowed light

Holding on through borrowed nights

Trying to make it feel like mine

Before it fades out of my life

Borrowed light

Borrowed time

Everything I touch

Just passing by

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Credit keeps the room lit

Faith keeps breaking thin

I say “I’m fine” so often

It almost sounds like truth again

I’ve been paying for tomorrow

With pieces of my past

Every promise feels rented

Nothing built to last

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I don’t need much to survive

Just something real to hold

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I’m living on borrowed light

Burning low, but still alive

Trying to see myself

In the dark between the lines

Borrowed light

Borrowed breath

Praying this glow

Outruns the debt

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If I go quiet

Don’t call it giving in

Some fires don’t go out

They just learn how to dim

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(Hold on…)

(Just a little more…)

(Hold on…)

(Till it’s yours…)

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I’ve been living on borrowed light

But I still know how it feels to shine

If I last long enough

Maybe what’s mine will arrive

Borrowed light

Borrowed pain

Still beating

Still awake

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Morning comes

No spotlight

Just me

And what’s left of the light