Below zero

You didn’t lose me.

You studied me

and still chose to destroy me.

You held my secrets like weapons

smiled like you’d never pull.

She wasn’t confusion or a mistake—

she was leverage,

and you knew.

You didn’t fall into betrayal.

You built it slow,

then watched me drop

like you didn’t know.

You didn’t just break my heart

you enjoyed the cut.

Stayed close while I bled out

just to make sure it stuck.

Say you didn’t mean the damage,

say you gave a fuck.

If trust is anything living

you killed it with us.

I don’t miss you.

I miss who I was

before I let you near my life.

Every memory came back armed.

Every thought tasted like metal.

You didn’t leave scars—

you left instructions.

I didn’t chase a high.

I ran from you living in my head.

One hit to shut it up.

One more to stay upright.

Then it owned the room.

Pain didn’t disappear—

it just changed uniforms.

You didn’t just break my heart

you stayed to watch.

Counted every breath I lost

and called it love.

If trust is anything sacred

you buried it with us.

You never learned how to be left

without making it violent.

So you sabotage.

You interfere.

You destroy first

and call it survival.

I see the damage in you.

That doesn’t make you dangerous.

It makes you predictable.

You didn’t just break my heart.

You burned the ground I stood on.

If you want back in my life

you start below zero.

I survived you.

That’s the part you hate.