Remember Nothing is permanent, not even your shadow. Your shadow leave you when daylight comes to get in my way that"s exactly when even your shadow leaves you and falls away. for as soon as you think life is going to get better you have to remember nothing is permanent except for the Father in heaven. our lives treat us bad only because we think we can control things, we have to understand. this is God"s plan! there"s nothing to do with us controlling anything when we understand, who we are and why we are here. that is the only time where you feel something holding near.
love to me has always been a dream a fantasy something far beyond me. but to find a friend like you it"s something I"ve never knew. I get happy but it keeps me sad because I even know I"m just a different form of bad. sometimes I feel like I"m a good guy, sometimes I feel like I deserve to just sit and cry without love. but that"s what I"m thinking that"s when I"m looking at myself from my eyes. not from those who know the way people treat you in the way they act around you that"s truly the way they feel about you. good guys we think that everyone is like us for the truth is some of us are just here to get people to the next level, so I take what I have now and leave all bad behind if someone else moves on and had better life without me I am supposed to be happy for them I"m supposed to be glad not mad or sad.
I"m supposed to be honorable and step aside wish them well and then run and hide never to interrupt their lives again like I never existed or change their lives at all. but at some point in my life I think I deserve to be the one that they don"t leave. I deserve to be the one that they come running to. I deserve I deserve or I guess the truth is, I deserve nothing at all. I desire love I desire happiness. but all I know I want to be desired other things that will ultimately leave me empty. doesn"t stop me from loving, it doesn"t stop me from feeling, and it doesn"t stop me from being me... people call me a fool. people call me stupid well I guess those aren"t my people. cuz I deserve it All I want it All.
I really care about others I . I just feel fear in my heart and soul to show you I love you..... BECAUSE I KNOW IT WILL ULTIMATELY DESTROY ME. it will ultimately destroy me. So I will wish you well, I will say goodbye. but I will love you where you are
I would love you where you are even if it"s far, I have to believe that one day someone will . LOVE ME WHERE I"M AT. and not just walk on me and treatment like a doormat. but until then I will love myself and that is the only gift I have I at least deserve that it"s about time I love myself where I"m at.
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