Chaos

I love this shit

I hate this shit

I don’t give a shit

I just make it hit

My favorite vice

My favorite sin

My favorite loss

My favorite win

I live like this

I die like that

No plan, no map

Just heart attacks

Thanks for the time

Thanks for the breath

Thanks for the drugs

Thanks for the death

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My favorite life, my favorite death

My first year broke me, my last year left

Sometimes I swim, sometimes I sink

Sometimes I blink and forget to think

Who cares when, who cares where

Who really listening, who really care

Half my friends ghosts, half still here

Half tell lies, half drink beer

I am bald, I grow hair

I disappear, I reappear

I don’t fucking know what’s right from wrong

I just keep moving when the light stay gone

Go with the flow, don’t fight the wave

Smile at God, then flirt with the grave

I don’t make sense, I make noise

I break my tools, I lack my poise

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I love this shit

I hate this shit

I don’t give a shit

I just make it hit

My favorite vice

My favorite sin

My favorite loss

My favorite win

I live like this

I die like that

No plan, no map

Just heart attacks

Thanks for the time

Thanks for the breath

Thanks for the drugs

Thanks for the death

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I think you a hoe, I got a few bros

None of us kings but we think we close

I ain’t got my shit in a straight-ass row

Bills on my mind but it’s payday slow

I don’t hunt no doe, I chase ideas

I fake confidence, I breathe through fear

I say “I’m good” when I’m not okay

I joke through tears just to get my way

I talk real big, got small control

I sell my nights just to save my soul

I break my promises, keep my pain

Act so free but I love my chains

I laugh too loud at a quiet low

I chase that rush, I avoid that growth

I know my flaws, I name my ghosts

I shake their hands, I pour them a toast

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Sometimes I pray, sometimes I run

Sometimes I stare down the barrel of fun

Sometimes I feel like I’m already dead

Still clock in, still get outta bed

I don’t want peace, I want it loud

I don’t want pride, I want a crown

I don’t want love, I want the rush

I don’t want trust, I want the touch

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I love this shit

I hate this shit

I don’t give a shit

I just take the hit

My favorite lie

My favorite truth

My favorite sin

My wasted youth

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I just do it for drugs, I don’t want your hugs

I don’t need your God, I got my buzz

Make it fit snug, wrap you in a rug

Sweep all the pain where the truth get shoved

I numb it up when the room too real

I shake too much when I start to feel

I chase that “off” when I feel too on

I sing my sins in a monotone

I talk like I’m heartless, I bleed like a man

I write all the chaos inside of my hand

I ruin good things just cause I can

Then blame bad luck instead of my plans

I want the high but I fear the fall

I want it all but I dodge the call

I stand real tall with a cracked damn chest

Screaming “I’m fine” with a tight-laced stress

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Thanks for your time

Thanks for your life

Thanks for the knife