Ashes in My Throat

[Intro]
Yeah
Caught in my chest again
Mm
Listen
[Verse 1]
Woke up with my jaw tight
Teeth on the edge of a breakdown
Phone full of friends I don't text
'Cause I don't wanna let this rage out
Hole in the door from last night
Knuckles still red in the daylight
I say I'm fine through a cracked smile
Lie so hard that it sounds right
[Chorus]
I got ashes in my throat when I scream your name
Every word that I choke tastes like loaded shame
I been driving through the dark just to feel something
Just to feel something, just to feel something
I got thunder in my chest that I can't explain
Flip from crying into fury, then I'm numb again
If I burn it all down, will it kill this pain
Or will I still feel nothing, still feel nothing (yeah)
[Verse 2]
Therapist say breathe slow
I only know how to speed up
Heart doing laps in a cage
Veins full of gasoline blood
You said I scare you sometimes
Truth is I scare me more
Want to punch through the clouds
But I just punch through the floor
[Chorus]
I got ashes in my throat when I scream your name
Every word that I choke tastes like loaded shame
I been driving through the dark just to feel something
Just to feel something, just to feel something
I got thunder in my chest that I can't explain
Flip from crying into fury, then I'm numb again
If I burn it all down, will it kill this pain
Or will I still feel nothing, still feel nothing
[Bridge]
Are you proud of me now
With these scars I can't post
All this smoke in my mouth
From the bridges I roast
I keep praying for peace
But I speak in a growl
Guess this heaven I seek
Doesn't answer me now (yeah)
[Chorus]
I got ashes in my throat when I scream your name
Every word that I choke tastes like loaded shame
I been driving through the dark just to feel something
Just to feel something, just to feel something
I got thunder in my chest that I can't explain
Flip from crying into fury, then I'm numb again
If I burn it all down, will it kill this pain
Or will I still feel nothing, still feel nothing (still feel nothing)

rap, Emotional melodic trap on dark, detuned 808s and eerie pads; male vocals soaked in heavy Auto-Tune, sliding between fragile croon and explosive, yelled hooks. Verses ride half-time drums and sparse piano stabs, then choruses slam with wide synths, stacked harmonies, and impacted low-end. Ad-libs echo in reverb, last hook strips to vocal and bass for a haunting close., beats, melancholy, deep, emotional