Intro
Yeah…
Midnight thoughts, screen glow
Same scars, new year
Let it run.
Verse 1
I’m smiling in a crowd but my chest still caves in
Saw the lights, saw the fits, still lost in my head spin
Everybody thinks I’m fine, I perfected the act
Hold the door, bite my tongue, put my heart in the back
I’m the one keeping watch so nobody bleeds
While my mind running laps on the shit I can’t leave
I owe favors, emotional debt, unpaid
Tryna save everybody else while I fade
I don’t show stress, I compress it inside
Bottle cap twisted tight, yeah I’m pressing survive
Care too much, say too little, that’s the curse
If I speak what I feel it’ll only get worse
Hook
The noise get loud when the lights go out
Whispers turn screams when I lie down
Say I’m good, say I’m straight, but it’s all cap
I’m drowning in my head, where the lifeline at?
The noise get loud when I’m all alone
Same past playing back on a broken phone
If I fall apart in the dark tonight
Tell me—would anyone notice my fight?
Verse 2
Flashbacks hit harder than fists ever did
Corner of the room, I was scared as a kid
Learned quick—don’t cry, make it worse
Silence was safety, pain was rehearsed
Doors slam, cops came, TV still playing
Smurfs on the screen while the house was breaking
They looked at me like I was born wrong
Like trauma stamped my name all along
Forced to grow up, forced to be strong
Carry weight that was never mine to belong
They said I’m useless, said I’m waste
So I buried my worth just to give them space
Hook
The noise get loud when the lights go out
Old ghosts talking when I zone out
I say “I’m fine” like it’s automatic
But my brain in survival, full static
The noise get loud, yeah it won’t behave
Every memory sharp like a blade
I’m tired of pretending I’m okay
When I barely got breath to stay
Verse 3
Dreams turned nightmares, I’m scared to sleep
Every closed eye pull the past up deep
I don’t know who to call, don’t know who to trust
Too much pain, too many “what ifs”
I ruin everything I touch—at least that’s the thought
Every win feels fake, every love feels bought
I’m scared I talk too much, scared I say too real
Overshare my soul then I gotta rebuild
I’m scared you’ll leave, scared you’ll stay
Scared it’s pity, scared it’s fake
So I kill my feelings, yeah I put ‘em to rest
Just to brace for the hit when I lose what’s left
Bridge
When I’m with you the voices mute
Just for a second, just a truth
But I won’t use you as my shield
You’ve been hurt too, I know that feel
I don’t know if I’m healing for me
Or playing “good” so nobody sees
The mess, the cracks, the war inside
I smile clean while I’m dead-eyed
Final Hook
The noise get loud when I sit in silence
Every year feels like more violence
I asked for help, but I’m still sinking
Still breathing, barely thinking
The noise get loud but I’m still here
Still fighting through another year
If I’m alive then let it mean
I survived everything they did to me
Outro
Yeah…
I’m not nothing.
I’m not done.
Even if the noise don’t shut up—
I’m still