In the dark

Intro

Yeah…

Midnight thoughts, screen glow

Same scars, new year

Let it run.

Verse 1

I’m smiling in a crowd but my chest still caves in

Saw the lights, saw the fits, still lost in my head spin

Everybody thinks I’m fine, I perfected the act

Hold the door, bite my tongue, put my heart in the back

I’m the one keeping watch so nobody bleeds

While my mind running laps on the shit I can’t leave

I owe favors, emotional debt, unpaid

Tryna save everybody else while I fade

I don’t show stress, I compress it inside

Bottle cap twisted tight, yeah I’m pressing survive

Care too much, say too little, that’s the curse

If I speak what I feel it’ll only get worse

Hook

The noise get loud when the lights go out

Whispers turn screams when I lie down

Say I’m good, say I’m straight, but it’s all cap

I’m drowning in my head, where the lifeline at?

The noise get loud when I’m all alone

Same past playing back on a broken phone

If I fall apart in the dark tonight

Tell me—would anyone notice my fight?

Verse 2

Flashbacks hit harder than fists ever did

Corner of the room, I was scared as a kid

Learned quick—don’t cry, make it worse

Silence was safety, pain was rehearsed

Doors slam, cops came, TV still playing

Smurfs on the screen while the house was breaking

They looked at me like I was born wrong

Like trauma stamped my name all along

Forced to grow up, forced to be strong

Carry weight that was never mine to belong

They said I’m useless, said I’m waste

So I buried my worth just to give them space

Hook

The noise get loud when the lights go out

Old ghosts talking when I zone out

I say “I’m fine” like it’s automatic

But my brain in survival, full static

The noise get loud, yeah it won’t behave

Every memory sharp like a blade

I’m tired of pretending I’m okay

When I barely got breath to stay

Verse 3

Dreams turned nightmares, I’m scared to sleep

Every closed eye pull the past up deep

I don’t know who to call, don’t know who to trust

Too much pain, too many “what ifs”

I ruin everything I touch—at least that’s the thought

Every win feels fake, every love feels bought

I’m scared I talk too much, scared I say too real

Overshare my soul then I gotta rebuild

I’m scared you’ll leave, scared you’ll stay

Scared it’s pity, scared it’s fake

So I kill my feelings, yeah I put ‘em to rest

Just to brace for the hit when I lose what’s left

Bridge

When I’m with you the voices mute

Just for a second, just a truth

But I won’t use you as my shield

You’ve been hurt too, I know that feel

I don’t know if I’m healing for me

Or playing “good” so nobody sees

The mess, the cracks, the war inside

I smile clean while I’m dead-eyed

Final Hook

The noise get loud when I sit in silence

Every year feels like more violence

I asked for help, but I’m still sinking

Still breathing, barely thinking

The noise get loud but I’m still here

Still fighting through another year

If I’m alive then let it mean

I survived everything they did to me

Outro

Yeah…

I’m not nothing.

I’m not done.

Even if the noise don’t shut up—

I’m still