(verse 1)
Grab a bottle and make a molotov, light up the petrol pump and a grab the kalashnikov, unload a mag into the passing cars sipping on some smirnoff, shoot myself to see blood on my neck that I smear off.
Sick of life, shit ain't the half of it, loosing my license, job and income by the look of it,
Every ounce of joy I had left, some bitch aborted my seed and took it.
Saw the lights in my mind, raised their tallons sunk them into me and took it.
Matters none to me, looks like I'll never learn,
I'll never again, bust in a dumb bitch, to donate my sperm
World trying to mk ultra me, experiments worse than you'll find at cern
Now im Sitting, self loathing in my room just trying to yearn,
For some better luck, playing Russian roulette, chamber the bullet up, aim to to my head and bust, oh fuck.
Brains blown out, as I leave, finally come unstuck,
From the so called life, tell this bitch to suck,
But she won't, talks to much, grab her mouth, sow it shut.
(Chorus)
Lost in my mind man I'm going insane, all these thoughts flying through my brain, I don't wanna be low I just wanna be sane, save me from myself before I lose this battle, I can't fight again
(Verse 2)
As I lay dying, drinking my soul away,
I spin off of the alcohol remenice of a better day,
I'm loosing it all, my friends, career, family, and I can't take the pain,
Back where I started, running in circles again.
What am I to do, no matter how hard I try nothing with ever do,
Nothing I try is ever good enough, feel like drinking paint thinners, fuck a huff,
Fuck it, I wanna die, I'll down the stuff,
Fuck my liver up, I ain't living it up, I'm done, I'm giving up.
Fuck all of it, I dont care no more,
Got work tomorrow but I'll drink a lil more
I'm can't even look in the mirror no more,
Scared of the reflections, alcoholism, still want more,
It's all I can think about, don't understand what life's about,
If this is all for me then I'm done with all the doubt.
I can feel it, My body is giving out, I don't think it will be long for the eternal blackout.
I'm lost, can't even find solace I'm blowing some bitches back out,
May as well, load up the mag and pull the mac out.
(Chorus)
Lost in my mind man I'm going insane, all these thoughts flying through my brain, I don't wanna be low I just wanna be sane, save me from myself before I lose this battle, I can't fight again
(Verse 3)
The world is at war, the dreams I have end up nuclear,
Why try anymore, when the future is so unclear,
I'm having premonitions, russian bombers in the skies, no return missions,
The final blast of light in fission, all snuffed out, end of all transmissions
(Chorus)
Lost in my mind man I'm going insane, all these thoughts flying through my brain, I don't wanna be low I just wanna be sane, save me from myself before I lose this battle, I can't fight again
