[Verse 1]
Ash on the bible
Lip on the bottle
Eyes on the ceiling
Tryna outrun the replay
Have you ever watched your best friend die
Blood on your hands, can’t blink that dry
Hold him and scream out, “motherfucker, don’t you die”
And the echo still answers every time I get high
Paramedics talking numbers, I just saw a face
Clock on the wall froze, stuck on that place
They zipped him up, I zipped up my heart
Stuffed it in a blunt, took flame to the dark (yeah)
[Chorus]
Loner stoner
I lost hope, I lost closure
Rolling up ghosts on my shoulder
Praying this pain gets slower
Loner stoner
Eyes red, heart growing colder
If I wake up when it’s over
Will I still feel this hangover
[Verse 2]
Text on read from the ones who care
I leave them hanging like his jacket on the chair
Can’t sit in that seat, that’s a shrine, that’s a trigger
Every laugh too loud feels fake, feels bigger
They say time heals, I say time hides
Puts new paint on the same cracked sides
I don’t do crowds, I just float in my room
Plant by the window, smoke in bloom (ooh)
Love left early, never said goodbye
Now every “I’m fine” just feels like a lie
Heartbreak hit, then death took more
Now I bolt every feeling like a boarded door
[Chorus]
Loner stoner
I lost hope, I lost closure
Rolling up ghosts on my shoulder
Praying this pain gets slower
Loner stoner
Eyes red, heart growing colder
If I wake up when it’s over
Will I still feel this hangover
[Bridge]
Every toke a time machine
Back to when we thirteen
Before the sirens, before the screens
Before I knew what forever means
I chase sleep in a clouded sky (yeah)
I chase peace but it runs and hides
If you see him on the other side
Tell him I’m still here, trying not to die inside
[Chorus]
Loner stoner
I lost hope, I lost closure
Rolling up ghosts on my shoulder
Praying this pain gets slower
Loner stoner
Eyes red, heart growing colder
If I wake up when it’s over
Will I still feel this hangover