[Verse 1]
Wake up on the ceiling
Heart is racing, hands like ice
Check the door again, again
Still can’t trust my eyes
Mirror says I’m breathing
But my chest says I might die
So I laugh it off at work
Say I’m just tired, just tired
[Chorus]
I self-medicate till the edges fade
Chasing sleep like a runaway train
Tell me, is it me, am I losing my way?
’Cause my mind plays tricks
And my hands still shake
Somebody help me before I break
I self-medicate
I self-medicate (oh)
[Verse 2]
Blue glow in the kitchen
Scrolling through a thousand lives
Everyone’s in color
I’m a sketch in black and white
Cancel all the plans I made
Tell them “something came up, sorry”
Truth is I’m afraid they’ll see
How loud it gets inside me
[Chorus]
I self-medicate till the edges fade
Chasing sleep like a runaway train
Tell me, is it me, am I losing my way?
’Cause my mind plays tricks
And my hands still shake
Somebody help me before I break
I self-medicate
I self-medicate (yeah)
[Bridge]
Is there a word
For halfway gone?
For crying in the shower
With your makeup on?
Is there a cure
For feeling wrong
In every single room
You’re standing in alone?
[Chorus]
I self-medicate till the edges fade
Writing prayers in the steam on the glass
Whisper “please” like a broken refrain that won’t pass
Yeah, my mind plays tricks
And my hands still shake
Somebody help me before I break
I self-medicate
I self-medicate (help me)