Shine instead of glow

Well, i still try and hide my crying 
I  grin and bear, but I've just been lying
Now lord knows I've been trying 
Threw unflavored conditions with worn skin 
And bones that stiffen. I'm still praying, but praying won't get you by when 
Life weights heavy on my soul, and hope isn't enough but failing with a family now is twice as rough now I carry that every where I go they say stars shine brightest at night so why do I just glow 
Now I'm living after dying. I've seen hevean and  i met the devil without trying, so in my life, I'm buying even if I land on my feet while crying
Life weights heavy on my soul, and hope isn't enough, but failing with a family now it twice as rough, now I carry that every where I go they say stars shine brightest in the darkest of nights so why so I just glow 
Every day, I get older, and there's a growing boulder to shoulder, so now I'm the condition holder finding a way for us to shine instead of glow 
Life weights heavy on my soul and hope isn't enough but failing with a family now is twice as rough now I carry that every where I go they stars shine brightest in the darkest night so why do I just glow 

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